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Who are you? Are you me, or I you?
Do you control this story
Is your [[memory]]
to be
trusted?Inside
outside
everything in this life
requries
a barrier, a membrane, a filter
we can't be
or see
everything
at once
are you
[[in|in2]]
or
[[out]]?You can't help
but click forward
identity unknown
identity unimportant
for once
it doesn't matter
WHO you are,
instead,
what is there to
behold
[[in|in2]] this
really long and
questionable
story
but maybe you want to
tap [[out]]being "in"
is overrated
outside
the air
[[freezes]], tosses, and tickles
so thankful for air
mossy bark
and
bees
making honey
despite [[it all]]you're "in"
so cool to be you
are you fitting in
or are you hiding in
rolling into a blanket burrito
hoping to never
have to go out
again
hoping to never have to
do [[it all]]
againEveryone
e v e r y o n e
bears [[a weight]]
you never know
even if you ask
even if you offer to help them hold it
you never know
in this world we need to take care of eachother
and [[take care of yourself]] your hands are freezing!!!!!!!
[[inhale]]A weight (text-colour:#99ab57)[not yours,] (click:"not yours")[I don't know what you bear.]
Planning a wedding
taking 5 classes
volunteering in hospice
attempting a social life
using goat simulator as therapy
while the world
heats us up like frogs
in boiling water
feeling helpless to change the [[temperature]]
wow that was heavy -
you chose weight!
anyways,
life is complicated.
no matter what
society must hold on
to the truth
that as long as we don't give up,
there's possibility
that (text-style:"bold","smear")[light] will win
so, how do you keep your [[cup full|take care of yourself]]?frigid air
waltzing leaves
walking around this fall,
with your poetry in my every step
recontextualizing your words,
mourning the loss of a light in this
[[life]] or [[dark world]]
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(text-colour:#9EAFC2)[Warning: 'dark world' path mentions suicide]
Googling
"wedding photographers"
"how to cope with (text-colour:#99AB57)[suicide loss]"
(click:"suicide loss")[(text-colour:#9EAFC2)[//google suggests suicide hotline ~ too little too late//]]
"masters in social work application tips"
and "what to do in case of ICE"
Holding it together
utilizing this life
to try and make a difference
My knees ache endlessly, I can't sit still, this to-do list is endless, the news makes my stomach lurch
But I would take all my pain and theirs
to keep
[[lights from going out]] life is complicated
precious
temporary
(text-colour:#99ab57)[thankful] for
the gifts in life
(click: "thankful")+(t8n:"dissolve")+(text-colour:#9EAFC2)[laughter shared,
a good hike,
goodbye hugs,
and "I made it home safe"
texts]
wow is it hard sometimes
wow does it feel
like rolling a rock uphill
but in the end,
we either do or we don't
so take care of yourself
[[take care of yourself]]//Remember to self care so you can keep your cup full and help others! Totally easy, takes no effort! Totally won't drive you crazy trying to even find the time to relax or stay healthy, you'll feel better in no time. //
Remember to drink (text-colour:#99ab57)[water]
(click:"water")[moisturize your (text-colour:#99ab57)[face]]
(click:"face")[stretch before (text-colour:#99ab57)[bed] (seriously)]
(click:"bed")[turn off your (text-colour:#99ab57)[screens]]
(click:"screens")[get 8 hours of (text-colour:#99ab57)[sleep]]
(click:"sleep")[sit up (text-colour:#99ab57)[straight]]
(click:"straight")[take your (text-colour:#99ab57)[vitamins]]
(click:"vitamins")[Get at least 30 minutes of exercise (text-colour:#99ab57)[daily]]
(click:"daily")[Sustain a creative (text-colour:#99ab57)[practice] (paint, draw, write, crochet, sculpture, etc.)]
(click:"practice")[Limit your caffeine (text-colour:#99ab57)[intake]]
(click:"intake")[Eat minimal processed foods, plenty of vegetables, LoTs of (text-colour:#99ab57)[protien]]
(click:"protien")[Meditate daily for spiritual health, oh and proven physiological (text-colour:#99ab57)[benefits]]
(click:"benefits")[Volunteer to help others and feel good (text-colour:#99ab57)[yourself!]]
(click:"yourself")[Maintain brain health! Puzzles, reading, cont. (text-colour:#99ab57)[education]]
(click:"education")[And remember to do this every day for optimimal performance! Feeling [[better]] yet?]
[[exhale]]whooooooshhhhhh
breath into your hands,
shield your face
the bitter cold mocks
your dry [[face]]but god
does this frigid air feel
so damn fresh
you remember
the humid summer
that overtook your lungs
missing [[the beach]] but thankful
for this winter rest
to refuel for more
summer fun
but first,
in the cold
hibernation season
[[take care of yourself]] The beach is //that
bi*ch!//
The beach has it all!
[(text-colour:#99ab57)[Sand]] for those who
love and hate it
you can't [[escape]]
(click: "Sand")+(text-colour:#9EAFC2)[grains in your toes
in your nose
in your sandwich
in every crevice of your water bottle.]
escape from daily life
at the beach
where
breezy winds
carry seagul cries
melted icecream
and hidden wine
memories of love and heart ache
every time I lay in the sun
[[Remembering|beach]] all that summer fun remembering
living moment to moment
(text-style:"blur")[june blurring into september ]
pictures, words, media
cannot capture that summer spirit
hold the taste of summer in your heart
you never know when it's time to [[part]]At 4
my mom found me
hiding behind a door
cutting my own (text-colour:#99ab57)[bangs]
(Click: "bangs")[I looked like Justin Beiber in his
bowl cut phase]
When I was 14, I parted my hair far to one side
to mimic the 90's teen movies
She [[cried]] because
I looked like a teenager
I love my mom, and we're so (text-colour:#99ab57)[far away] from eachother
When we talk
I say
"[[take care of yourself]]"
(Click:"far away")[I dream one day we'll live closer, and I need you to be here. Take care of yourself.]
My mom always encouraged crying
I used to hold in all my feelings,
and she'd coax the problem out of me
like a cork on champagne
then
it would all stream out,
the pains,
the fears,
the tears,
and then
I'd feel [[better]]Doing better
than the last time we talked
irritation requires a higher threshold
I feel hopeless less
I try
and [[remember|remember end]]
times that have been worse
saying to myself
it's not perfect, but it's better I r e m e m b e r
The smiles of everybody I've loved
the warmth of presence
the chill of a fall gust
the pain of loss
sand in my toes at the beach
my mother's love
to take care of (text-colour:#99ab57)[myself] (click:"myself")[(even if it's annoying)]
to protect my light in the dark
who I am
that sometimes I'm in, sometimes I'm out
crying and laughing and screaming
this life is one to [[r e m e m b e r]] [[r e m e m b r e]][[r e m m b e e r]][m e r b e m r]
(click:"m e r b e m r")[while you can, because memory is temporary and (text-style:"fade-in-out")[[illusive]]][R e b e m e r m]
(click:"R e b e m e r m")[Remember to live in the moment, after that it's all [[memories]]](text-style:"blur","expand")[[M e m o r i e s|the end]](text-style:"blur","expand","buoy")[M e m o r i e s]
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